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Signal Clarity

There’s no devotional poetry this time, or insightful intuitions, or philosophical theorising. Just one small observation i’ve made, that seems worth sharing.

I have anxiety and depression. I struggled alone with this for many years—i used to joke that i was the only person in my family not seeing a therapist. Which was true; but my pride in that truth was woefully misplaced. I come from a long line of broken, wounded, angry people—several lines of them, actually. But somehow i thought if i just pretended i myself wasn’t broken, it would be so. I didn’t seek help until it got so bad that one night i realised, if i didn’t get better, i was going to die. So i swallowed that misplaced pride, and sought help. I’m not ‘better’—often with mental illnesses you never get better; you simply…manage the symptoms. So that’s what i do. I manage the symptoms.

Like many Bothered folks, i’ve found my ‘godphone’ goes on the fritz when my anxiety or depression acts up. In the past, i used to think They were abandoning me—that They couldn’t stand to be connected to someone so pitiful and weak and broken. Which, i suppose goes without saying, didn’t help my situation any. I know now that i was mistaken; it’s not that They leave, but simply that my own mental fog makes a clear connection impossible. I know now that They would not abandon me, and that’s some comfort, even though i cannot feel or hear any of the Powers through the mental gunk.

Any but one.

For reasons i neither know nor understand, i can still connect to one of the Powers, no matter how deeply mired in my own mind-swamp i get. I can always feel my connection with Loki. Even though Odin seems now to have assumed the role of my ‘primary’ deity, His voice gets lost in the fog. Loki’s doesn’t.

I don’t know what i am to Them; i have no name for the ties that bind me to each of the Blood Brothers. It feels right to say that i ‘belong’ to Odin—that i am in some sense His—but there is something that i am to Loki as well, something that He is to me. I have no name for it, but i know that it…is. I know from experience that i can sink far enough down in the dark that i can neither feel nor hear Odin, nor any other Power i know. But there is no despair black enough that Loki cannot pierce through it. As i said, i don’t know why it’s so; but it’s so.

I’m writing this because today is one of those anxiety-depression days, one of those mired-in-the-mental-muck days when working for more than a few minutes at a time is exhausting, when it takes a momentous effort even to move, when i have to be reminded that the sensation of my stomach gnawing on my insides means i need to eat. And Loki is here. He speaks very little on days like this: My discernment is fuzzy at best, so it’s not a good time for any Deep Conversations. But He’s still there, a quiet presence that gently nudges and encourages, that sifts through the mind-silt, picks up the pieces of me, and presses them back into place, and holds them until the glue dries. Until i’m something-like-myself again.

Hail Loki, the Light in Dark Places
Hail Loki, Who Puts the Pieces Back Together
Hail Loki, Who Mends the Broken With Gold


Hymn to the Blood Brothers

Hail to Him who drank Gunnlöð’s mead,
and hail to Him who ate Gullveig’s heart.
To Odin and Loki, Blood Brothers, hail!

Hail to Frigga’s Lord,
and hail to Sigyn’s Love.
To Odin and Loki, Blood Brothers, hail!

Hail to Thor’s Father,
and hail to Thor’s Friend.
To Odin and Loki, Blood Brothers, hail!

Hail to Sleipnir’s Rider,
and hail to Sleipnir’s Mother.
To Odin and Loki, Blood Brothers, hail!

Hail to the Breath-Giver,
and hail to the Blood-Giver.
To Odin and Loki, Blood Brothers, hail!

Hail to the Wisdom-Giver,
and hail to the Wit-Giver.
To Odin and Loki, Blood Brothers, hail!

Hail to the Wolf-Feeder,
and hail to the Wolf-Father.
To Odin and Loki, Blood Brothers, hail!

Hail to the All-Father,
and hail to the Witch-Mother.
To Odin and Loki, Blood Brothers, hail!

Hail to the Spear-Shaker,
and hail to the Thread-Tangler.
To Odin and Loki, Blood Brothers, hail!

Hail to the Hel-Road Traveller,
and hail to the Sky-Treader.
To Odin and Loki, Blood Brothers, hail!

Hail to the Raven’s Friend,
and hail to the Vulture’s Path.
To Odin and Loki, Blood Brothers, hail!

Hail to the Rune-Finder,
and hail to the Lie-Finder.
To Odin and Loki, Blood Brothers, hail!

Hail to the Way-Seeker,
and hail to the Treasure-Bringer.
To Odin and Loki, Blood Brothers, hail!

Hail to the Wind-Howler,
and hail to the Earth-Shaker.
To Odin and Loki, Blood Brothers, hail!

Hail to the Tree-Rider,
and hail to the Net-Weaver.
To Odin and Loki, Blood Brothers, hail!

Hail to the Wolf’s Foe,
and hail to the Watcher’s Bane.
To Odin and Loki, Blood Brothers, hail!

Hail to the Hanged God,
and hail to the Bound God.
To Odin and Loki, Blood Brothers, hail!

Hail to the High One,
and hail to the Middle Being.
To Odin and Loki, Blood Brothers, hail!

Hail to the Story-Teller,
and hail to the Story-Mover.
To Odin and Loki, Blood Brothers, hail!

Hail to the Hunter,
and hail to the Horned.
To Odin and Loki, Blood Brothers, hail!

Hail to the Silence in the Storm,
and hail to the Fire in the Water.
To Odin and Loki, Blood Brothers, hail!

Hail to the Madness in Wisdom,
and hail to the Wisdom in Madness.
To Odin and Loki, Blood Brothers, hail!

Hail to the Nameless,
and hail to the Formless.
To Odin and Loki, Blood Brothers, hail!

Hail to Him who drinks with the Trickster,
and hail to Him who walks with the Wanderer.
To Odin and Loki, Blood Brothers, hail!

~ Magpie Mason

N.B.: This is (very) loosely based on the structure of the Ardhanareshwara Stotram from the Hindu tradition.


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